Urgh. Car shopping list. #s13 #jdm #moleskine
Uhhh love the reciprocity principle.
Hmm, people have jumped on the coloured icon(avatar) idea. You saw it here first homies!
Interior Monologue #1 17/05/13
What are my beliefs, what do I value? My boss asked me to make a list of 50 attributes and narrow it down to 5, 5 attributes that dearly described myself. With these 5 attributes I would make s.m.a.r.t goals, one for every aspect of my life, business, personal, body development social, success. What are my long term goals, what are my short term goals?
Why aren’t I the person I want to be? I can’t prioritise, I lack motivation, I’m easily distracted, I have some level of add/adhd. I can’t even delete my facebook to get studying. If I deleted my facebook I would be so much more productive. I can’t do it. I don’t want to be socially segregated.
Is university the right path for me right now? Can I commit myself to study, especially next year, the most important year of my life. Third year psychology? If I can’t sit down and concentrate, does that describe the person I am, someone who has weak resolve and no discipline? I need to discipline myself. I need to change.
I value the social aspect of life far too much. Socialising has it’s benefits in a practical sense in that you can create a useful social network. I talk to people and get distracted from my goals.
Why can’t I be an introvert. Urgh.
My thoughts are so disorientated. I need sleep to function.
I”m never satisfied with what I’ve already done, perhaps thats a good thing in that I keep on driving myself forward. At the same time I get so depressed and bogged down because I feel like I’m never enough.
I already work 30 hours a week, study full time, work out 4-5times a week, why do I do this to myself. Too many hobbies, too many expectations. I just want to be a race car driver (serious).
Hah. This makes me sound like a depressed person. I’m not. I just have high expectations of myself. This I don’t share with many. On a surface level perhaps you’d just see me as an immature guy who never really grew up and can hold a good conversation.
The deeper you type into your thoughts, the more true the words are to your thoughts. This is fun and I’d do it again. Perhaps tomorrow. Or even later tonight. I like reflecting.
I have university in 40 minutes and I can’t get off my ass. Okay, time to get up and go to class.
